Samantha put on her lipstick and looked at herself in the mirror. Tight white tanktop with gray stripes. She had curled her hair. She had it and her nails redone yesterday because today was the day she would see her man ... in jail.
She only got to visit every two weeks but she made sure she looked as sweet as possible for him when she did. She tried to give him enough love and hope through that glass window that he could survive in there until she saw him again. She was okay with his petty crimes, breaking and entering. Dealing. She believed he could change. She loved and fought for him. She could see he was trying to break out of the cycles. He was her man, and she was resolved to love him through all of that, no matter what everyone else said.
They opened the door for her and she walked in with her sexiest walk. And as soon as she spotted him waiting in his orange jump suit behind the glass, she zoned into only him. And she was his for the next hour. This was their routine for 2 years. And it did indeed sustain him.
But within one week of him getting out he had slept with another woman.
And Samantha dropped him. She could deal with his crimes against others, but if he was heinous to her, she was done. She cried for weeks but that she could not tolerate.
In 1 Samuel 2:25 Eli tells his sons, who were priests and were sleeping with the women who helped out in the temple, defiling God's temple, "If one person sins against another, God may mediate for the offender; but if anyone sins against the Lord, who will intercede for them?"
Eli probably sensed that sins against God directly were especially bad. God gave them lots of laws to abide by but the ones he repeatedly dropped them for were the ones where they worshiped other gods, (the ba'als and Ashtereth poles).
I don't know exactly how that applies to today after the new covenant created by Jesus, but maybe it has something to do with that strange "unforgivable sin." In Matthew 12:31 it says blaspheming the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven. I've heard this means really seeing the Holy Spirit's work and rejecting Him anyway. Whatever the case, may we keep God close. May we argue with Him like a spouse, but may we be very careful not to leave him for another. May we not ascribe kingship or our loyalty to any other entity. But when we do, may we repent quickly and beg forgiveness so that he may continue to love us away from our other sins, the ones against others.
Raw Spoon, January 11, 2021