Why is it that when I work really hard and get some gross thing out of my life, i turn my eyes inward and suddenly see something new that seems just as ugly as before? Where did that come from? Will I ever rid myself of selfish, sloppy flaws?
A fractal is a pattern that is made up of little versions of the same pattern. Look at a tree- a trunk has branches coming off of it. Step closer and a branch looks just like it because it has a bunch of twigs that come off of it. Look at one of those twigs, it has a bunch of other twigs that come off of it. The same pattern exists the closer you look at the tree.I think our journey is like moving through a fractal. Each step towards making something more pure or perfect, makes each remaining flaw more noticeable. Even though it seems we’ll never get to the bottom of it, we have taken a step deeper into the fractal- closer to the center of God’s heart.
It’s like climbing a mountain. The rocks and the trees exist at each new ridge but it is getting steadily brighter around us, even though we may not notice. His light is the love that draws us closer and the heat is his mercy burning away our impurities so we will be ready to take one more step closer to him.