I was walking through a store and started humming the song “Hello,” by Adele (it had been on my playlist from the day before). A few moments later it came on the radio above me. I thought, hmm, that’s weird.
Then, I was in the car when one of my besties called and told me stories of miracles and hearing God’s voice. After I hung up I thought, “Wow, it’s been so long since I’ve felt that way. So long since I believed that was possible.”
When I got home I searched youtube for “seeking God” and listened to the first sermon that came up. It was by TD Jakes (who I didn’t realize at the time another friend had been encouraging me to watch). TD Jakes said we have to pursue God in the same way He has pursued us. He said, maybe you need to go somewhere. Maybe you need to do something drastic. He even said, “If anyone is listening on the internet right now, he may be calling you to get up and go somewhere.” So I hit the road. I thought I could drive to the International House of Prayer just outside of Atlanta. I was just hoping to hear God’s voice. I had felt distant from God for so long. Numb in all areas of my life. But that is what has allowed me to be content. Quiet. Empty. Content. No more pain. I didn’t have to deal with desire because I didn’t let myself care deeply about anything anymore.
I got stuck in traffic and realized I might not get any time at the actual House of Prayer! God, you might have to tell it to me now, here in traffic. I remembered the Adele song that had popped up twice earlier in the day. I shrugged and put the song on. Maybe God could speak through an Adele song. (to hear the song and keep reading, push play below)
Raw Spoon
